I just..

want to be alone with my books.
It doesn't seem anybody is able to fill this stupid massive hole. It feels like something is missing.

People look so fake to me these days.
Is there anybody left that's real?

Who the hell am I kidding?




I just really need to get away. That's all.
UGHHHHHHH.






My life is a mess.
Ohyes.


People just really really piss me off.
Ach, ich weiss nicht.


And the worst part is it's all my fault.




Also, I know there are people out there who are so much worse off than I am. But I can't help feeling like I'm worthless.

I don't want to point fingers, but it's been like this since Aaron.
I mean, I was everything for that kid. And when he blew me off, just so easily, I felt like I wasn't good enough anymore. Not just for him, but for everyone, myself.

If I could tell him anything, it would be a big fuck you.

But hey, maybe that was all my fault too.
I'm not blind. I knew how/what he was the whole time, and I still let myself believe him. He wasn't going to change for me. Hell, he still hasn't changed for her.
Ungrateful little bitch.



I'll tell you the full story one day when I'm feeling up to it.


I don't believe I've ever been this excited to get to college.
Fresh start.