Paranoia.

I am so beyond paranoid that I'm sick.
I can't understand why I'm feeling this way.

I want to talk to Corey.
But he's not messaging me back.
He doesn't respond to my IMs.

But our last conversation ended with him saying he was going for supper and that he missed me already.
I think that was last night.
Maybe it was the night before.
I don't remember...

Why does he affect me like this?

I don't like LIKE him.
I'm still trying to get over the fact that he likes me and he's my ex's cousin.

Although, I COULD see myself liking him.
But I want to meet him first.
That's why I've been trying to talk to him.
I want to meet.
I don't want me falling into a relationship filled with sweet talking or flirting.


I'm scared.